after recording my notes about an elaborate, cinematic dream that I had last night, before returning to slumberland......I awakened to transcribe these spoken notes into 'print', but I was unable to find the recording.... So many apps on the damned smartphone!.....my phone informed me that I would have to upgrade some apps to enable 'playback'....what a nuisance....I'm returning to paper pad and pen in the future.....rather than bother with Apple's constant reminders to 'upgrade' to yet other programs that it is hawking......no thanks! So, the Dream, now totally forgotten will remain 'that'......since I have no idea of what, in the middle of the night, seemed so important that I had to outline it via semi-conscious ramblings to the phone......my brain/memory just refuses to dislodge the words and images from its now-inaccessible circuitry......the 'writer's curse'! When will I ever learn that recognition-induced forgetting is cognitively impenetrable......Write it down, Reed! It's like drawing on an Etch-a-Sketch, then lifting the clear plastic, only to find that the elaborate drawing has disappeared and only a mass of scribbles, one upon another, on its sub-strata have remained.....
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Few step from the treadmill, and many who do spend the rest of their lives trying to 'get back on it'.......Next week, I'm 'testing' my own proclivity for both subconscious routines, associative sub-routines and habitual and often irrationally unreflective behavior. For example: since many believe that I am 'addicted' to Cooking and Eating, I've challenged myself to change my grocery-shopping habits by not getting any of my 'regular' food items, but instead.....trying only new and untested foodstuffs, then preparing these in new and heretofore unexpected ways. (aware, of course of the "Catch 22", there!) I discussed my 'plan' with an old friend who follows very strict and inflexible 'habituations' that I've long thought were both desensitizing and, eventually, boring. He thinks that 'Routine" and "Habit" insure long-term productivity, predictability and point prevalent normalcy; and, that the disruption of experiential repetition leads, inevitably, to confusion and anxiety........I'm already 'thinking' myself outside "routine" by varying the associational relationships between concepts, experiences and mindsets, which is how we humans and most living things adapt and evolve within our concentric Framework....itself, a limiter, definer and negligible modifier......that we/they have been born into or have chosen as a sub-structural lattice for growth and development....
