A Page for the 'Thinking Children's Coloring Book' that I designed while visiting a friend in Holland....in my mid 20's......The 'Plan' was to 'market' the Book with a box of drawing pencils....for those who have some needs for self-expression, without actually creating anything other than 'choosing colors' and 'drawing within the lines'.......Most of these drawings were lost, when they were stored in my garage, which leaked during a heavy rainstorm.....Even this one has some damage.....
Out of the cradle, endlessly rocking,
Comes the ever repeating notes
Of the neverending songs.
Each time the song is sung,
Each time the Heart is won,
Each time the Tale is spun.
If Today is Yesterday's Dream
That we've forgotten to forget,
Then, Tomorrow is Now.
Repression is the delusion of the fury,
The arm around a neck and down an arm,
Cramped breeches and moist panties.
Oh, Daddy, thanks for the chocolates and flowers.
We were just listening to Mozart
And discussing Plausible Deniability.
JILL You put me in the wrong
JACK I am not putting you in the wrong
JILL You put me in the wrong for thinking you put me in the wrong.
JACK Forgive me
JILL No
JACK I'll never forgive you for not forgiving me
There must be something the matter with him
because he would not be acting as he does
unless there was.
therefore he is acting as he is
because there is something the matter with him.
He does not think there is anything the matter with him
because
one of the things that is
the matter with him
is that he does not think that there is anything
the matter with him
therefore
we have to help him realize that,
the fact that he does not think there is anything
the matter with him
is one of the things that is
the matter with him.
there must be sometime wrong with him
because he thinks
there must be something the matter with us
for trying to help him see
that there must be something the matter with him
to think that there is something the matter with us
for trying to help him see that
we are trying to help him
to see that
we are not persecuting him
by helping him
to see we are not persecuting him
by helping him
to see that
he is refusing to see
that there is something the matter with him
for not seeing there is something the matter with him
for not being grateful to us
for at least trying to help him
to see that there is something the matter with him
for not seeing that there must be something the matter with him
for not seeing that there is something the matter with him
for not seeing that there is something the matter with him
for not being grateful
that we never tried to make him feel grateful
when overwhelmed by loud noises or several people talking at once.....I discovered, long ago, that the best thing for me to do...is re-focus...replacing the stimuli to one sense to that of another.......especially on nearby sharply defined objects, which seems to muffle the edges of my diminishing constraints. Yellow, with green, is especially effective....... I think this is one reason that I became a photographer.....to re-focus on still, visual stimuli rather than endure cacophony.....
More, later---on the intellectualization of emotion, and plausible denial; to determine if the emotional/intellectual system is functioning properly, and, if not, to comprehend, if not to explain, the faulty performance of conscious thought, by examining potential sources of conflict and the way conflict becomes manifest in a reasoning system. At unconscious systems level, the localization of functions in particular parts of the cortex and the connections among the subsystems which support their interactions in performing higher level functions like those involved in language processing or the labelling of output expressions-both visually and verbally and gesturally, (breath)---cannot be mapped (yet) or comprehended with clarity, thus the confusion. The desire to mold the abstract of a both orderly and chaotic environment in that part of the brain that we call the mind-- that which is made even more inchoate by all the influences of electrical fields, the thoughts of conscious things and the unconscious activities of all things that exist in this manifestation of matter in the universe can, only in the mind of a normally deluded human being, create the visions of unthinking people who are content enough to function with the doors to perception and consciousness closed absolutely and locked even at the genetic level from their progeny. And those who pose to grasp the handles of these doors, pose a threat not only to their gene base but to their own mental stability. Isn't this difficult to talk about, express, or comprehend with any clarity? I see a light in a distant window, high in that building that stretches beyond the clouds into infinity. I'm looking for a ladder... extendable enough to place my vision directly into the window, although there are countless other windows beyond my grasp. So where is this going? I think I know. Where do you think? The suspenseful and thrilling conclusion is to be seen next Saturday morning after the 8th episode of Flash Gordon, after yet another dozen Sally Cruickshank animated features and a brief national geographic program about the cannibalization of missionaries by amazon natives.
8 years ago, I posted some words about letting go of non-mutually-beneficial relationships.....Not so easy, as people..myself included... tend to perpetuate predictably co-dependent scenarios.....Yesterday i made a few difficult decisions and unfriended some "friends" that, over years to decades,increasingly offered practically nothing and that i had become indifferent toward or that had defined the parameters of 'relationships' by limits, restraints, apathetic indifference or inexpressiveness.......What's the point? Many of my friends from youth are dead....I don't want zombies to replace them........communicative vitality...well...yes!
